How old are you?

MC900130271How Old Are You?

 I would have to say I’m five years old today. Yep that about how long it’s been since I realized who I am.

It’s a shame to live 40 plus years not knowing who you are; being called everything but what your momma named you.

Who do I belong to? Where do I fit in? Whose child am I? Why am I here?
Used, abused and discarded like yesterday’s garbage.
Do this, do that.  And yet, deep down I hate this and despise that.

Longing to fit in so denying who I am.
Suppressing what I wanted and what was really down on the inside.

So there I sat for years withering away and starving the person inside.
Frail, quiet and unassuming all the while waiting for a glimpse of hope, a ray of sunshine.

Hanging on to a mustard seed, a hem or a vision.
Waiting for some thing or some one to let her be who she was meant to be.

A plan has been set.
A destiny unfolding.

A path to be followed.
Words have been spoken.
Shackles released, bandages loosed.

Now alone and on my knees.
Lonely and frail but free.
Free to be the one she was destined to be.

Free to speak. Free to cry. Free to laugh.

Contentment within my heart. Working, growing, and above all loving the small lives entrusted to me. With them brought unconditional love, smiles galore and loads of laughter. Love unwavering that embodied endless joy.

Now thriving. Strong, healthy and free. Able to share, to grow and to help others find the inner person who is struggling to be free.

Remove the bandages, loose the shackles.
Time to be free
Time to run
Time to go higher
No more limits
No more doubt, but on a path towards destiny.

So, tell me…how old are you today?

NMB! Has been built with tears, pain, loss, bruises and frustration but stands firm on the promises and foundation of Jesus Christ.

About nomorebandages

No More Bandages! promotes spiritual healing of the heart, mind and soul. NMB! focuses on, what I call, the spiritual and natural bandages that we place in our lives. A bandage is anything we use to cover up a wound. Those bandages can hinder our growth. Once that bandage is identified, it can be removed, allowing God to begin the healing process. God can heal cancer just as easily as a broken hea rt. It all lies within our desire to be made whole. I am blessed to be able to share my life and the abuse I endured beginning at just four years old. If I help just one person, my hurt and pain is not in vain. We all need healing in our lives.
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2 Responses to How old are you?

  1. Anita Ayers says:

    Thank you sister, truly your words ring true in my spirit, I know to do… But the “good that I would i do not”… You KNOW where I’m at. I attended one if your sessions recently. I have to say I left still lonely and disheartened. I know this is a process to be completed, because I KNOW God’s will to be done. I just lack a lot of patience right now – will continue to ‘follow’ NMB page while going through. Tired and Sooo hurt.

    • Hi Anita, I’m glad you reached out on here. I want you to know that you are definitely not alone. I remember feeling just as you did. Please know that I am praying with you and I know that God will do just as he promises. The conference was different for some. Although I did it exactly as God instructed I do recognize that others felt it wasn’t what they thought. My only comment is that God rarely does things in the way we expect. The last session of the conference was phenomenal and the 20 or so women that were there were truly healed and delivered. I’m still receiving awesome feedback from them. Although you may be having a valley experience remember you are never alone plus you have a sister praying with you. I encourage you to come to one of the women’s groups. We meet every third Wed at 6pm. True discussion and deliverance has taken place during those meetings. If you decide to come, let me know something specific you would like to discuss and I will focus on that subject entirely.
      Anita, I encourage you to never give up. Times may seem bad now but as long as God is with you every step of the way you will not fall. You will come forth victorious. I look forward to a praise report from you. If you ever need to chat about anything or just need an encouraging word, please email me at Your sis in Christ, Stacey

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